Sunday, 26 March 2017

Thoughts of the week

1. I've started micro journaling. I'm not sure if that's a thing or not, if it isn't then I just made it a thing. What I'm doing is writing down one sentence thoughts. I started doing it as a way to release the daily silly little things that were annoying me then I decided to also add in the things that please me. It's fun, quick and easy.

2. Strangely enough it seems to be working. I'm calmer and not as irritated as I usually am. Winning.

3. Wednesday we sold Tiger's car. It's quite freeing being a one car family. It won't be for long, he's looking for another car now, but it'll be a cheaper car and if we don't own it outright the loan will be small. Slowly but surely we're getting our finances sorted.

4. The more I read about minimalism the more I realise it's the way that I want to live my life. Possessions weigh me down and I don't like it. 

5. Having said that, I haven't decluttered much the last few weeks, that shall be remedied this week. 

Friday, 24 March 2017

FFS Friday - Alone

I don't have much to whinge about this week and that's a wonderful thing. Life is so much easier when Tiger is home. We're going away this weekend and I'm so excited. By the time this post goes live we should be on the road. It's been about six months since we went away, I'd love to get away more often.

Poor Shelby has been on heat for the last few weeks. We're going to get her fixed and I thought we'd have until she was one, but she's on heat already and she's only 10 months. 

The poor little thing hates being outside on her own so I put a nappy on her. Hahaha, it was so funny, she looked really cute wearing a nappy.   

Finally I feel like we're getting somewhere with Chai. 

We saw the psych again on Wednesday and she said that she doesn't think he has ADHD or Autism, but she does think he has anxiety and sensory issues. I researched sensory issues and if that's what Chai has got it explains a lot. Finally I feel like we are making progress.

I need to make an appointment with an OT to get him diagnosed and then see where we go from there. 

Both the naturopath and the psych also spoke to me about finding time for myself. Hah. Like it's that easy. But when I think about it, it is. Tiger is home for two weeks every month so I can take time for myself, I just don't do it. But as they both pointed out, I can't be a good Mum when I'm exhausted all the time. So that's my next priority, finding time for me.

The trouble with being an introvert is that when I have time for myself I want to be alone at home. If I wanted to go out then time to myself would be easy, but I don't want to go out, I want to stay home on my own. I love the freedom of a quiet, peaceful house when no-one is home. I switch off my phone, don't answer the door and just revel in the silence, it's bliss.

Tiger is more than willing to go out with the boys, but whenever he does he spends money, which is why I don't ask him to take the boys out very often. Maybe I need to set him a spending budget so that I'm not worried about him wasting money.

I have started to do little things that make a difference. I do a face mask at least twice a week, I got a massage last time Tiger was home and I went out on my own for a few hours whilst my beautiful SIL looked after the boys. Small things that I really should have been doing for the last six years. 

If you're a new parent learn from my mistake. Always make some time for yourself away from your beautiful babies. You need it and you deserve it.  

Monday, 20 March 2017

Weleda Skin Food

Weleda Skin Food is one of the unsung hero's in my beauty routine. I use it all the time and yet never give it a second thought.

Skin Food is one of those awesome products that can be used for a multitude of different purposes. I use it as a lip balm, face and body moisturiser, hydrating face mask, highlighter, lip gloss, hand cream, cuticle treatment, skin soother, nappy rash treatment and eczema cream. 

Lately my favourite way to use skin food is as a natural highlighter. Highlighting can get a bit tricky when you're over forty, so using a product that gives a clear shine is perfect as it doesn't sink into fine lines, it glides over the top of them and looks like a natural glow. 

If you are yet to try Weleda Skin Food, I highly recommend it!
A 30ml tube costs $14.95. The small size makes it ideal for a handbag or nappy bag.  

Ingredients: water, sunflower seed oil, lanolin, sweet almond oil, beeswax, alcohol, polyglyceryl-3 polyricinoleate, glycerin, limonene, viola tricolor extract, fragrance, hydrolyzed beeswax, sorbitan olivate, rosemary leaf extract, matricaria flower extract, calendula officinalis flower extract, arginine, zinc sulfate, linalool, geraniol, citral, coumarin.

Sunday, 19 March 2017

Thoughts of the week

1. I'm constantly surprised at the amount of hate people spew out online. I don't understand why people put so much time and effort into speaking so hatefully.

2. Those same people then criticise others for being positive all the time. Stick to your own lane mate.

3. The weather here has been perfection this week.

4. A move up north is still on the cards and I really don't want to go. I've got such a beautiful support network of friends and family here.

5. My minimalism game has ground to a halt. It's been about a week since I threw anything out. I'm itching to get back into it but my motivation has run away.

Friday, 17 March 2017

FFS Friday - Running away

Chai has only been to school two days this week. 

Things are getting worse. 

His anxiety signs are becoming more frequent, to the point where one of his teachers mentioned it to me. 

Last week I took him to a naturopath to see if that would help. She does Bach flowers so I was hoping to get a remedy, anything is worth a try. She didn't have her remedies with her that day so gave me her number and asked me to contact her asap to arrange a time to make a remedy for Chai. 

I contacted her on Saturday and she didn't reply. I contacted her again on Tuesday and she told me that she's too busy moving and doing workshops so will need to refer me to someone else. WTF?

Now I'm feeling like I wasted my money seeing her because she did nothing. I'm seriously considering asking for a refund.

This week I had the usual battle to get Chai to school. He starts asking and crying about it the night before. 

He gets one day off a week and I let him choose which day that is. I know he needs to go every day but dealing with a tired, upset child five days a week is more than I can cope with. Giving him one day off makes the other days a lot easier. 

This week he chose to have Tuesday off. Wednesday he really, really didn't want to go but I got him there and he didn't cry, winning.

Thursday was a huge struggle. He cried and begged the whole morning. Crying is bad enough but when he begs it breaks my heart. I finally got him to school, we looked in to the classroom and there was a relief teacher there. 

Chai took one look at her, panicked and ran away. 

The teachers assistant (who he loves) went to get him. She managed to get him outside the classroom but couldn't get him into the room.

Three of my friends also tried, one managed to calm him down but again, as soon as he got near the classroom he went into panic mode. We went home. 

This morning Eljay slept in until 7.15am. We're usually up by 6.30am. Getting up after 7am means the morning is a huge rush. I really couldn't be bothered and knew we'd be coming straight home again if there was a relief teacher there again, so Chai stayed home. 

It's looking more and more like I will have to home school him. Things are just getting worse and I have no idea what to do. I'm not going to medicate when there's nothing wrong with him and I'm not going to psychologically damage him by forcing him to go to school. He frequently tells me that school is the worst part of his life. 

Making six year olds sit still all day is crazy. Wednesday Chai ended up on the time out matt because he couldn't stop wriggling. Surely if the kids can't sit still they should be sent outside to run around for a few minutes not put on the time out matt. I'm going to have another meeting with his teacher next week.

If that doesn't work I'm taking my boys and running away. We can travel the country and I'll home school. Sounds good to me.

Thursday, 16 March 2017

Things to try Thursday - Body lotions

The Body Shop Italian Summer Fig Body Cream - Oh how I love the Italian Summer Fig fragrance, it's such a beautiful fresh scent. The body cream is the perfect compliment on those days when I'm using the perfume and want the scent to last longer. I'll also use it on days when I'm not wearing perfume but still want to smell lovely. Being a body cream this isn't as thick as the body butters, so it's ideal for every day use.

Empassion Natural Body Lotion - This has been my go-to daily moisturiser. It's richer than I expected, sinks in quickly and is fragrance free. The pump top is mess free and being unfragranced it doesn't clash with my perfume.

Soap and Glory Girligo Spray On Moisturising Lotion - When I was pregnant with Chai I was so sensitive to fragrance that I couldn't wear perfume. Girligo was the only scent that I could wear because it was so light. Whilst it isn't a perfume it is a beautifully scented body lotion that works well as a very light fragrance. Hydration wise Girligo is very, very light. So light in fact that it's a bit of a push to call it a moisturising lotion, it's more like a moisturising perfume.

Tuesday, 14 March 2017

La Roche-Posay My UV Patch

Sun protection is such an important thing and something I'm very vigilant with. My boys don't appreciate it at all but they will when they're adults and don't have sun damage!

Social Soup sent me a My UV Patch to and I loved it. They have an app at you dowload, then you scan the patch every few hours and it tells you if you need to apply sunscreen. I found it really interesting to learn how often I need to reapply my sunscreen. On a really hot day (36 degrees) I needed to reapply every hour! I don't usually go in the sun when it's super hot, but if I do I certainly don't reapply my sunscreen every hour. 

I was pleasantly surprised to discover that my sun exposure wasn't as bad as I expected. I do my best to stay covered up and out of the sun, I apply sunscreen every time I'm in the sun, but I assumed that I'd still have quite a lot of inadvertent sun exposure when I was driving etc. Turns out it's not nearly as bad as I though it was, which is great.

Here's how it works. You stick the patch on the back of your hand, scan it with your phone and then rescan it every time a reminder comes up. The app will tell you if the UV index is high and also tells you when you need to reapply your sunscreen. La Roche-Posay say that the patch lasts up to five days, mine lasted seven before I removed it. It was still fine and could have lasted longer but I felt I'd learned enough so took it off. 

These are for sale but I'm yet to find them. My local Priceline doesn't have them, but it's worth checking with your local stockist to see if you can get hold of one.

Sunday, 12 March 2017

Thoughts of the week

1. Last week we got a book case and now I have all my books on display again. It's been five years since I had them out. Oh how I've missed them. I walk past them constantly and my heart smiles to see them all. I feel like I've been reunited with a missing part of my soul. It's a wonderful feeling. 

2. I've finished my first round of the Minimalism Game and thoroughly enjoyed it. Not only did I declutter a bit, I unpacked boxes that have been sitting around for over three years, discovered thing I thought we'd lost and got my books out again. I've already started round two and it's going well.

3. A few weeks ago I bought a travelers notebook on Ebay. It arrived last week and I love it. Now I'm learning all about the world of journaling. I kept a diary for years and years so I'm looking forward to getting back into writing and recording my life.

4. My baby boy is six now! 

5. Ed Sheeran's new album is amazing. 

Friday, 10 March 2017

FFS Friday - Tough

There are times when I really struggle with Chai's anxiety. Really struggle.
I know it's not his fault and that he can't control it but there are times when it just gets too much.

Last week was one of those times. It took him two hours to go to sleep.
I tried, Tiger tried but he just wasn't going to sleep. He'd lay there quietly and the second we moved he'd be up.

Instead of having a few hours to ourselves with the kids in bed we had two hours of sitting in a dark room with Chai hoping that he'd fall asleep. I cannot express how fed up I am with having to cuddle him to sleep every night. He's six years old. I'm over it.

I was so annoyed after that night but it got worse. The whole time Tiger was home he'd only let me put him to sleep and he'd take ages to get to sleep.

When Tiger is home is the only time I get to have a break and a little time to myself, but that didn't happen this swing thanks to Chai's anxiety.

We're seeing a psych so I'm hoping that will help a bit because I don't know how much longer I can cope. Actually that's not true, I will cope for as long as I have to, but I am so over it I'm starting to think I need to see a psych myself to help me cope with having to cope with Chai.

Anxiety is awful. Having to be patient and kind when I'm sick of his anxiety carry on is tough, really tough.  

His first psych visit was yesterday. She mentioned that he has signs of ADHD and that there is medication which can help. I refuse to medicate him so that he can conform to an unrealistic schooling system. I'd rather home school until he's old enough to be able to deal with school. For the time being we're going to continue as is and see how the next few visits go. 

I mentioned previously that last weekend we had Chai's birthday party. What an experience. 

The preparation was exhausting, made more so by me having to do it all myself. I spent two days cooking and preparing everything. 

The day of the party Chai woke up and told me we'd have to cancel the party because his stomach felt sick. Turns out he didn't want people singing happy birthday to him.

He didn't want a candle either so after me going to all the effort to make him a special cake he barely even looked at it. Oh well.

It also revealed a few things. A few people who I thought were good friends didn't bother to rsvp or show up. Nice to know where I stand with them.

Out of the thirty kids invited only 18 rsvp'd. How rude. I later found out that some people who didn't rsvp had been planning to come. How does that work? Do people expect you to cater for them even if you don't know if they'll be there? The whole world of birthday parties is very strange to me.

It also showed me which people are there for us. We have a lovely group of friends who I can rely on to be there. Most of them where there, the few who couldn't be let me know. 

All said, it was a good day and Chai had a great time which is all that matters. 

Thursday, 9 March 2017

Dear Chai

My big boy, you are 6! I know I say it every year, but I can't believe my cute little baby is 6! You're such a boy now, you've lost all traces of baby and look like a handsome little boy.

You're such a special person. You are kind, considerate and full of energy. You love your friends and are very social, you can make friends with anyone and everyone. 

You had a growth spurt over the holidays and have shot up making you taller than most of your friends now. You're having a few struggles with school but I'm sure we'll get there, you don't lack intelligence you just aren't quite ready to sit still all day. Can't say I blame you there. 

Slowly but surely you're becoming more independent. Every Monday is cousin day, you scoot to school with your cousin and then after school you go home together and spend the afternoon there then come home after dinner. You love that you get to have a Big Boy Play all on your own.

One of your favourite things to do is swim. After swimming lessons at the end of the year you got so confident and now swim around like a little fish. You love swimming underwater and even dive into the deep end. You love jumping in whilst doing funny poses and constantly try to make me laugh.  
Your other favourite past times are jumping on the trampoline, playing with your toys (lego, Grossery Gang, Ninja Turtles). 
You love being around people and can chat to anyone. 

On Sunday you had your first ever birthday party. The morning of the party you asked me to cancel it because your belly was sick. When I asked why you wanted to cancel you said that you didn't want everyone to sing happy birthday to you. You said that you wanted to blow out a candle but didn't want any singing. When we got to the party you had a great time. You didn't blow out a candle and we didn't sing to you so you were happy. 

My precious boy, I love you more than I can put in to words. Thank you for  making me a Mum. You'll always be my baby.